I want to write a recap of the year, but my goodness, so much has happened! We brought in 2010 with a trip to Chicago which was filled with emotion - from tears to immense joy. I knew on that trip that I would never love anyone the way I love Steve. A couple of weeks later, we were engaged and planning an elopement, then an elopement/wedding, then a wedding.
Somewhere in the midst of all that, I started a new job and said goodbye to the people who had helped me begin my career. It was a great move but by no means an easy one. Soon after that, I gave up Goldie (my trusty old Cavalier) and became a Volkswagen owner. For the first time in my life, I experienced power locks. :)
I did have some breakdowns. I won’t lie about that. Anxiety gets the best of me and with car crashes, financial worries and more, I broke down more than once this year. But, I’ve been lucky enough to have friends, family members, and a husband that are always there to bring me back to sanity.
The biggest and best part of this year: I GOT MARRIED. Sometimes that fact still hits me like a ton of bricks. I have devoted my life to one person and sometimes the magnitude of that makes my heart feel that it might explode. That 100 degree day in July was the very best day of my life, and I’ll never forget the moments (and mess ups) that made it what it was. I still am amazed at the way people came together to make sure that we had a great wedding, as well as giving me a great bridal shower and bachelorette party.
We honeymooned in Denver, and everyone laughed a little when we told them that we were spending our honeymoon white water rafting. But, I’d never change what we did. Pushing our limits together like that - all the excitement, nervousness, and awe - was the most romantic thing I’ve ever experienced. I will always remember that week as the first and only time I felt completely and incredibly happy. Not a worry in the world.
I’ve grown new friendships, re-cultivated others, and forgiven those who can’t take back things they’ve done. I’ve also had to forgive myself. I’ve made new friends - great ones. Ones that inspire me in ways I’ve never been inspired before.
I wrote a novel in a month. I wrote a short story. I wrote poems. In short, I wrote... and not for work. My hobbies and my interests are more important to me now than they ever were before, and I plan to keep it that way. A very smart and ambitious friend & I now have a business plan and, not only a dream for next year, but dreams for the rest of our lives. That’s a good feeling. I’ve made the conscious decision that the only way to dream is big.
We moved to Noblesville. We’re making ourselves at home our new environment (although, I still feel as though nothing will feel as much like home as Bloomington). We’re closer to some of our very best friends and work.
I saw Washington DC for the first time. We made many wonderful memories with the family I’ve gained, there and elsewhere this year. I’m lucky and honored to be a Hansell.
At the start of the new year, Steve will start a new and challenging job. I’ll continue to write and work, and we’ll keep considering settling down and growing a family.
I don’t know what 2011 holds for us. I doubt it could be as packed with events as 2010 was, but you never know...